Underneath, the unintelligible truth."
- Milan Kundera
Dimensions.
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
Even in my conscious efforts to look away and take some time to forget my "old life", it still managed to creep back in and make me realize how much i missed what i was running away from. In a way, i guess i saw this coming. After all it wasn't a bad life… it was just, hurting me a little bit. Although there has never been a question of how fulfilling it was and how HUMAN that life made me feel like, i just needed to feel simple-minded again; i wanted to be stress-free again; i wanted to find another place for my mind; and most especially, i needed to find another place for my heart.
I needed to lose myself… and i did.
Now, nothing can compare to how happy i've been and how i've been able to finally take everything in stride. I MISSED EVERYTHING, and i'm glad i can slowly get to be in that part of my life again. But i have no regrets about creating another world for myself to move around in. Because doing that has helped me regain, and give more of, the unconditional and uninhibited ME i lost in that life i wanted to leave behind. I feel better now. Really. And soon, i'll be A-OKAY.
>A<
