I. Need. Sleep.

My body clock needs work. -_- Last night i tried to sleep early… 9 o'clock and i was already in bed. I don't know what time i actually fell asleep, but when i woke up and checked my phone, it was 12:44 am. I fell asleep again then i woke up and the clock read 1:44 am [no kidding.] I was able to go back to sleep, but much to my dismay i woke up again at 3 am. After that, i kept twisting and turning around my bed until i gave up the thought of sleep at 4 am. Gawd. Last night wasn't a nice night. My fault i guess… dawn has been my bed time for the past few months. -_-

After i finish this entry, i'm going to give it another try. This time, i'm hitting the sheets at 10 o'clock. Sana makatulog na ako ng maayos. hay. Nakakapagod maging puyat.

>A<

T_T

Three hopeful visits to tektite later… a text message ended my dream. :c

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Hurt.

Losing that wasn't one of my proudest moments… and i beat myself up about it every single day. i've tried to get it out of my mind, and i have. But YOU, you seem to be oblivious to the fact that it hurt me more than anyone can ever understand, and that the support you gave me when i told you about it was the only thing that made me feel better about that point 004 mistake. And yet, very often, the truth comes out of your mouth… you were disappointed, and you're still disappointed. Everytime i make a stupid mistake or a stupid remark, you bring it back with all your bitterness along with it… you don't even know how painful it is to hear that from you.

I am still disappointed in myself because of what happened, and forgetting it was the best thing i could do… so i beg you, don't remind me. Again, it's not something i'm proud of. And if i could do something to go back to that time when all the numbers were working for me, i would. But i can't. And the last thing i need is for you to rub it in everytime you want to make a point.

Stop it. Please. Stop it. :c

>A<

More transformers!

Bonecrusher skating after Optimus Prime on the Freeway.

(one of my MANY favorite scenes.) 

Bumblebee. I love him so much. ^_^

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Abso-fuckin-lutely awesome. @_@

"Let me introduce you to my friend… OPTIMUS PRIME."

i want my own autobot. :p

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