Underneath, the unintelligible truth."
- Milan Kundera
Hurt.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Losing that wasn't one of my proudest moments… and i beat myself up about it every single day. i've tried to get it out of my mind, and i have. But YOU, you seem to be oblivious to the fact that it hurt me more than anyone can ever understand, and that the support you gave me when i told you about it was the only thing that made me feel better about that point 004 mistake. And yet, very often, the truth comes out of your mouth… you were disappointed, and you're still disappointed. Everytime i make a stupid mistake or a stupid remark, you bring it back with all your bitterness along with it… you don't even know how painful it is to hear that from you.
I am still disappointed in myself because of what happened, and forgetting it was the best thing i could do… so i beg you, don't remind me. Again, it's not something i'm proud of. And if i could do something to go back to that time when all the numbers were working for me, i would. But i can't. And the last thing i need is for you to rub it in everytime you want to make a point.
Stop it. Please. Stop it. :c
>A<
