Being grown up’s not half as fun.

See, now, i graduated last saturday. Unfortunately though, prior engagements prevented me from being able to post as soon as i could. :p

+ Grad dinner with the folks.
+ Aeo's grad party. [got home at 4:30 am :p]
+ Q.ave trauma after aeo's party. [takte kayo kapow! hahah]

+ Service at 9am.
+ Laguna at 3pm.
+ Caught up with Cis' Grad Party at midnight.
+ Party Extension Road Trip @ The Fort. [got home at 5 am. :p]

*sigh* These are indeed the best days of our lives. :,c

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And so it is.

We can officially be CALLED adults.

Other issues of selfishness and immaturity from one side of the family didn't keep my day from being great. I was with my friends [well… SOME of them. :c], i was wearing a pretty dress, and i was able to spend some quality time with MY FAMILY. Nothing can beat that. ^_-

I wasn't dedicated enough to get honors, but i think i have enough memories with the people i care for to make my whole college life worth all the sweat and grease. I wouldn't trade iAcademy for any other school because of the wonderful friends i was fortunate enough to meet here. I know that Bataan would possibly be one of the last times for all of us to be together like that. It'll be less once we all start working, but i am still hopeful that none of us will let LESS become NONE. Let's not forget each other okay? c:

HAPPY GRAD EVERYONE! Thanks for the memories. ^_^

>A<

Of losses and gains part III.

How nice… jaren and hana's mom were one room apart.

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Of losses and gains part II.

As if things weren't bad enough… :c

Jaren's in the hospital right now, she was hit by a car yesterday. As for now that's all i know. I'm about to leave for Capitol Med. Oh, right, did i mention that hana's mom is in the same hospital? Yeah.

Suddenly i don't feel like graduating tomorrow. -_-

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Of losses and gains.

Two of my close friends lost one of their loved ones this past week: One, a cousin; And the other, a grandmother.

Irah… ate ann's most loyal cousin and protector. I only know him from all the stories she's told me before. He loved ate ann dearly and he was always there to keep her safe in the dangerous environment they were unfortunately born in. Now all i can think about is how ate ann would survive it after this. I know she's a strong woman, but at this point in her life where she has to fulfill her duties, it would've been a comfort to still have him around. :c

Lola… hana's sweet grandmother. I met her once at hana's birthday celebration. She could only speak korean but she had this welcoming smile on her face as we greeted her [or atleast, TRIED to greet her]: "aneong hasseyo!" Hana loved her so much, and so did she. She started it all… she was the best cook, the first of the kim-ladies, and the one who took care of them all. And then, she was taken away.

I extend my condolences to the both of you… You can do this. You're both strong women, and this experience can only make you stronger. I love you both.

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(more…)

This and That.

Thanks to my good friend myks, i found this quote:

Love and Death: Movie Love Quotes
To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love; but then one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer, to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love; to be happy then is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy; therefore to be unhappy one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down.

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P.S. Yoku Dekimashita!!! ^_^ Congrats aeo!
Pagbutihin mo ang pagiging Hapon. heheh.

Talking talk.

Talking to you for the past few days has been a joy. ^_^ Although i admit i really do hate having to talk on the phone for hours, with you i kinda don't mind. Besides, our over an hour long convos have helped me a lot since that first phone convo we had… I'm lovin' it — headaches, sweaty ears and all. c:

Thanks darleng! You are still my one and only. hahah! :p

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Out and over with.

And so, the cat's out of the bag. Believe it or not, i didn't get hurt after letting it out. Much to my surprise, it was where i went for safety that i fell flat on my face…

That hurt. :c

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Shall i fold?

After crying this stupid heartache out on my best friend, i spent the rest of the night releasing all the tension on my multiply account. I have no friggin' idea about CSS… but ofcourse, desperate times call for desperate measures. I squinted away and exhausted all my brain power to understand whatever i could just so i could change the design.

If i wasn't so unstable, i wouldn't take it out on innocent webpages and digital applications, i would just do what i have to do and get this thing out… i mean, how hard is it to tell someone how you feel when you just found out you don't stand a chance? I can just come up to him, tell him, and then runaway like the sissy that i am and never come back. Then again, if i don't hesitate at all and do it right away, i wouldn't be much of a sissy won't i? Yeah… i must stay sissy-fied.

*sigh*

Sorry if i confused anyone… I'm just messed up right now. :c

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inevitable.

I don't want to graduate yet. :c

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