Just like that. T_T

FACK.

Just when things have finally been cleared up, and i finally felt that everything was okay; Just when i finally got the long hug i've needed but was too scared to ask for; Just when i finally felt sincerely happy about where i was… Just when i finally felt welcome and truly forgiven; When things finally fell into place…

…it was taken away from me. It was taken away from all of us. :c

I'm going to miss you so much. A lot of time was wasted between all of us and i wish i could just spend more time with you… kahit na hanggang graduation man lang. Sobrang nakakalungkot, sobrang nakakalungkot talaga nitong lahat. I'll keep my promise, i'll be good and i'll take care of myself. And by the time you get back and we see each other again, i'd be better — i'd be loved… i promise.

We'll terribly miss you! See you again in a few years. :c

>A<

I guess not.

In an ideal world, i would be perfectly fine.
In an ideal world, i would be satisfied.
In an ideal world, this would be enough.
 
 
 
 
But THIS, this is the real world.
 
 
 
 
And in this world, nothing is as it seems. Behind all the color you will find the shadows of doubt, denial, anger, bitterness and revenge. What you see is never what you get. And what you have is never really yours to begin with.
 
 
 
 
I'm not even who i think i am right now. I'm still stuck in the same rut i was in for the longest time. But now, it gets worse. Because now… I AM BEING LOOKED AT AS THE BAD GUY.

>A<

My drumsticks are getting lonely.

Itching to pound the pads away again with you guys.

>A<

What’s on.

THE L-WORD

FINALLY! I am ecstatic about finally being able to watch it. ETC has not let my down so far, especially now that it has adopted the show that has three of the most memorable ladies on screen for me: JENNIFER BEALS, whose character in the movie FLASHDANCE inspired my mom to give me my name; KATHERINE MOENNIG, the coolest character in the series that i loved but was cancelled - YOUNG AMERICANS; and MIA KIRSHNER, the hot girl who did the grossest kissing scene ever in NOT ANOTHER TEEN MOVIE.
 
I mean, it's SO high school! The whole show reminds me of my childhood barkada, i feel nostalgic just watching them be the way they were written to become. For me, it's like Sex and The City, only better… Like ten times hotter and a hundred percent more relatable.
 
Unfortunately though, it IS on Philippine Cable. And not even the latest timeslot can save it from all the butchering. -_-

 
ALANIS' HUMPS?!

DUDE. I mean, come on. It's like… I'm… I… I DON'T EVEN KNOW EXACTLY WHAT TO SAY ABOUT IT! -_-
 
To have a "Humps" rock cover, typical. To have the video spoofed on a gag show, acceptable. But to have Alanis Morissette sing it with all her "Ironic" glory, and to see her trying to act all spoofy-sexy on the video — can't that be… BLASPHEMOUS?! T_T
 
Anywho, it's just a parody. [thank God!] Although i admit that it was hilarious and brilliant, that didn't make it less puke-worthy to me. Listening to the lyrics being sung like that and seeing her act like that just made me sick. Goodness. No more parodies like this please? I get your point, just stop with these kinds of parodies… stick to the angsty ones. We'll still get ya. PROMISE. XD 

>A<

Weightless.

One of the many things i will terribly miss after graduation. :c

>A<

040207 WASAKAN!

ME  
[who's ready and willing to get wasted]  
 
+  
 
5 huge bottles of GranMa  
 
+  
 
3 huge bottles of G.S.M.  
 
+  
 
6 bottles of Red Horse Grande  
 
/  
 
friends and a game of Fire and Ice  
 
=  
 
ME 
[who's terribly HAPPY and hung-over :p]

>A<

To write this down as means to reconcile.

It's been a long, LONG, weekend. A lot of things have happened and a lot of things have finally been said. Last saturday was the longest and, at the same time, the lightest day i've had in so long. I thought i missed, but God willing, i got my chance.

Thank you for that chance. THANK YOU SO MUCH.  
 
I know this won't change much. And i also know that forgiveness can never take back everything that was said and done in the past 2 years. But i'm better knowing that the tension is now gone, and that we can finally share a smile or two whenever we cross paths around school. I'm better knowing what i know now about you, and what you know now about me. I've found comfort in the fact that we've finally understood each other… as old friends, and as women. You don't know how this has helped me. Nevertheless, thank you. Thank you for giving me a chance to talk to you, and especially for giving my friend a chance to make things right. 
 
We'll miss you! God bless!

>A<

Embers…

…we're burning bridges down. ^_-

>A<

In bits.

- no sleep yet. 

- neck hurts. 

- frustrated. 

- hurt. 

- loving this music video.  

- uber tired.

>A<

…

The part of forgiveness and acceptance may have been easy, but the healing part will be a little more difficult. However, i'm still here, amidst all the pain and regret, i still want you to get what you've been longing for. Sincerely dear friend, i hope everything works out like you've dreamed of for so long. Although, I will not lie, I'm still hurting… i'm going to keep my word.  
 
I will be okay.

 
In time, i will be.

>A<